I lied...

I lied...
When I tell you that you're not the one I like.

I lied...
Whenever I tell myself that it's okay to be your friend.

I lied...
When I told you that I will need your help when a new guy comes into my life.

I lied...
When I told you that you were my like my close friend-slash-bestfriend in one.



You know what hurts me the most? It is the fact that we have put each other in the "friendzone". I can't seem to read your mind. Everything is too complicated. But I'd rather stay this way, than risk our friendship's future.


I am slowly getting afraid that I might actually fall for you already. I need to raise my guard. I need to pretend that everything is alright.


Because that is how it should always be.... for now...

Limitations...

So you've assumed...


There's nothing wrong in assuming. Assumera din ako.
The worst part? it's when the guy you like assumed that it is pertaining to him..


I know my limitations. I have set my boundaries in the first place. I know when to cross the line. And yet, I am not crossing it. Why? I respect you. It fucking hurts. IT REALLY FUCKING HURTS!


I know that you are not going to be able to read this. But if ever you will be able to see this, know that I am truly hurt with what you've said. Coming from the guy I like. I've always liked you for quite some time already. We became friends. Heck, I was wishing it never happened in the first place. But I am hurt. I need to put on a brave face always. I need to hide my own feelings. Why? Because you are my friend in the first place. I am you're friend. I AM YOU'RE FUCKING FRIEND!!!!!  I accepted you for who you are, setting aside my feelings because of that. AND I HATED IT!!!! That hurts me the most....



P.S. You've apologized. I've accepted it. I'm back in the friendzone...